My Ego-as-seen is structurally inaccessible to me, only lived in shame or pride

Evidence

Thus the appearance of the look is apprehended by me as the upsurge of an ekstatic relation of being, of which one term is the “me” as for-itself which is what it is not and which is not what it is, and of which other term is still the “me” but outside my reach, outside my action, outside my knowledge. This term, since it is directly connected with the infinite possibilities of a free Other, is itself an infinite and inexhaustible synthesis of unrevealed properties. Through the Other’s look I live myself as fixed in the midst of the world, as in danger, as irremediable. But I know neither what I am nor what is my place in the world, not what face this world in which I am turns toward the Other. — Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness, 742 (#corroborates, via linked claim)

Categorization

• XREF: connects to: Being-for-others alienates me into an objectivity I cannot reclaim for myself; The look splits me into a for-itself and an unknowable being-for-others — Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness: An Essay on…, 742; Being seen enslaves me to a freedom that is not my own — Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness: An Essay on…, 741 (+1 more)

Broader Connections

• Being-for-others alienates me into an objectivity I cannot reclaim for myself #corroborates (0.85)
• The look splits me into a for-itself and an unknowable being-for-others #corroborates (0.82) — Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness, 742
• Concepts about my body only signify, never deliver, its lived self-alienation #expands (0.78)
• Being seen enslaves me to a freedom that is not my own #expands (0.75) — Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness, 741