Feeling larger than the universe while longing for the future is inherently restless

Evidence

That night I couldn’t sit still, I walked around the flat, to and fro in my room, up and down the stairs, in and out of the downstairs rooms. I felt as if I were bigger than the world, as if I had everything inside me, and that now there was nothing left to strive for. Humanity was small, history was small, the earth was small, yes, even the universe, which they said was endless, was small. I was bigger than everything. It was a fantastic feeling, but it left me restless because the most important thing in it was the longing for what was going to be, and not what I did or had done. — Karl Ove Knausgaard, A Death in the Family, 894

Categorization

• FICTION: Material for rendering the paradox of ecstatic anticipation — the feeling that already having everything means one can only wait.
• XREF: connects to: Expressive orientations stabilize the present while instrumental ones defer to the future; The constant rush through life leads to anxiety and dissatisfaction. — Dan Harris, 10 percent Happier, 279; Musical energy can make cosmic despair feel exhilarating rather than draining

Related

• Musical energy can make cosmic despair feel exhilarating rather than draining (similarity 0.91)

Broader Connections

• Expressive orientations stabilize the present while instrumental ones defer to the future #contradicts (0.75)