Beauvoir internalized blame when Sartre failed to reciprocate her emotional abandonment.

Evidence

Le trouble became so brutal during that period that she came to call her non-sated desire “a poisoned tunic” and her trouble “a secret ailment which rotted my bones- a shameful malady” (FA, 68). Let’s note here that instead of placing the blame on Sartre’s inability to abandon himself in return for her trouble, Beauvoir placed Th e Question of Reciprocal Self-Abandon to the Other 51 all the guilt on herself. — Christine Daigle, Jacob Golomb (eds.), Beauvoir and Sartre, 124